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Strange Befores

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Poem

Strange befores Aftermath in hindsight Nothing In the middle But transient space Familiar voices In my head Speak about regrets Strange face Old pictures A me long gone Nothing Holds the wave of sadness Could have beens No more Familiar pain Throbbing A sad song humming Hope rising Stranger me Holding on to dear life In a life long gone Until my me broke free With nowhere to go Transient space

Fallen

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Poem

I am me Somewhere deep down Like snowdrops Green growth tries to break through layers of frozen can’ts My stomach churns The planted bulbs want to break free And there is not enough space within me For all that growth I will have to become bigger I will have to become more I will have to become stronger I will have to become me I will have to heal I forgive myself through space and […]

Unfolding

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Poem
Close up leaves looking like layered feathers

Like a cloak wrapped around me To protect from your evil eye White down No sparkles Edges a bit darkened from use I feel the tug of their weight On my back My penance is over I belong I am home I am strong I am not alone Unfolding Their span is huge A fragment of a second Quantum jump From penance To acceptance And suddenly there was their weight My fiery sword lost for […]

Told you

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parental alienation / Poem

Told you not to poke the bear Told you not to eat the Cake Told you not to play with them Told you not to tread so loudly Told you not to love your dad Defended you against the bear Saved you from becoming fat Yelled at them for being mean Taught you how to be considerate Rewarded you for calling him names Never told you bear was friend Never told you cake makes happy […]

Suffixes for Abuse

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The prefixes you have for meUsually start with fucking (insert derogatory term here)You used them the moment you knew off meNot anything about me–just off me A threat to your carefully spun web of deceitOf course you feel threatened by meYou cannot manipulate meYou cannot predict me Your open threat:‘Hands down I will win.’Won’t work with meI am healing–the nounThat means I am ripping off band-aids Granddad always said:‘Let air touch the wound to heal.’Air, […]

Brexit Scotland

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Outtakes

Freedom of movement 02 This is like ‘Harry Potter’ Niece age 5 My new university I wanted to live somewhere else Where my dad’s death was not so loud Because he never was here With mountains, hills, water, woods ‘That’s my place’, I said touching the walls Hearing their song That’s where I belong Freedom of movement

10 years

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Poem

As it beganso it ends I handed myself overGave myself upI have claimed myself backI relentlessly believe in my powerYour spite and greedYour self-loathingWill eat youOne dayLet go of the monsterYou are better than that Geh mit GottAber Geh