All posts tagged: abuse

A child hiding within

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He is dead inside The poor boy So you say As if you would know An army of zombies From the living We see no death in him The sad boy But you Are another story A life lost long ago But must you spread death? But must you spread hate? Can you not see somewhere within A scintilla of love? Do you know how to love?

Solace in Insanity

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Distorted visions Lead by your insanity You hide behind The chaos in your mind That’s where your power lives Truth a threat you cannot bare When the borders of your world Grow thin and the people within Begin To strive for freedom You leash out with abuse and insults Trying to regain control To reinforce the chaos You must not let loose Or they will see the other side If you let go they might […]

Survivor

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close up of a bonfire flame

I want to rage I want to rage so fiercely Like a hurricane ripping up the land I want to rain fire and brimstone I want flood the lands with stormwaves tall as mountains I want to swing my sword cutting through meaningless flesh I want to scream until your eardrums burst I want to let go let go of holding back the chaos And thus I sit My back to the wall Arms wrapped […]

Sadness

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dramatic night shot of full moon peeking through bare branches of trees

Sadness is leaking Like broken plumbing Sewage of pain Better out than in ey? Trying to stop the leak With bad habits Chocolate Mainly No drugs Never drugs Brain on emotional rollercoaster And it keeps spilling everywhere If you don’t watch it It will stick to you After a hug with me I don’t want that So I leave Walk alone In the dark In the woods I am not scared I am the woods […]

Your Need

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a frankly totally over edited photo of a chalk scribling on the walkway, into black and white pencil sketch with hearts overlaid

Your Need To find someone to hate To find someone to grate To find someone to belittle To find someone more brittle confuses me Your Need For mercurial machinations For merciless judgement For malevolent gossip For marauding emotions angers me Your Need for grandeur for fake valour for othering for bothering annoys me Your need to hide your insecurities Is not more important than our need to be safe

Trigger Warning

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Like light and dark Like clouds crossing the ocean So cross your feelings Bobbing with the waves Push and pull Come closer I need you Go away I hate you That’s how it works The traumatized self Can’t cope alone Can’t cope together Must find someone to hate To leash out to Must have an enemy Because every enemy created is better Is saver then the enemy within The one you can’t escape The one […]

Warning harsh language!

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we are caught in dichotomies things are either black or white but this is not how we heal we heal in the inbetween spaces we heal in odem of prayer we heal in unconditional love but but but I hate your guts I hate everything you stand for I hate your manipulation I hate your abuse I hate your lies I hate your pettiness I hate your professional victimhood I hate your refusal to live […]

Abuse

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when the abuser believes to be the victim when they don’t see the damage they cause when they cry wolf to distract from grey fur showing through the sheep skin when everyone but a few understand exactly who the wolf is when their manipulation freys at the edges when happiness threatens their reality when their forgetting isn’t holding in the demons anymore whereever they turn the demons are everywhere there is no escape

He

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  He Was all in sync with you Same interests Wanted to grow Wanted to achieve It was a rouse To lore you in Mirroring Pretending Maybe believing himself For a bit Until the facade crumbled