Survivor

I want to rage
I want to rage so fiercely
Like a hurricane ripping up the land
I want to rain fire and brimstone
I want flood the lands with stormwaves tall as mountains
I want to swing my sword cutting through meaningless flesh
I want to scream until your eardrums burst
I want to let go let go of holding back the chaos

And thus
I sit
My back to the wall
Arms wrapped around my knees
Because all I want to rage against
Are dead already
It would be an empty gesture

I do not make empty gestures

Sadness

Sadness is leaking
Like broken plumbing
Sewage of pain
Better out than in ey?

Trying to stop the leak
With bad habits
Chocolate
Mainly

No drugs
Never drugs
Brain on emotional rollercoaster
And it keeps spilling everywhere

If you don’t watch it
It will stick to you
After a hug with me
I don’t want that

So I leave
Walk alone
In the dark
In the woods

I am not scared
I am the woods
I breathe the silence
I am never alone

They all died
Slowly
Painfully
The perpetrators
Cheating me out of my revenge

What now?
I have no choice
But to heal now
It’s painful
Healing

Scars hurt, itch, bother
Sadness leaks everywhere
Like a flood of gue
I can’t stop it

So I just let it leak
Let it spill out
Send it on it’s way
It will stop eventually

I know

Unseen

You need no mask
You need no hiding

You walk unseen
Amongst the living

Yet you can hear
Can listen

They speak
About your strength
your beauty
your light
your resilience

You hear
Yet are unseen

Until
that day
on which
you learn
that it was you
who didn’t see
yourself

that is
the day
you start breathing

When will it stop?

When will it stop?

The peeling off

Of onion layers?

Will there ever be a bottom?

Will you ever arrive?

Within yourself?

Or is this a spiral?

Unearthing darkness?

Throwing out pain like outgrown clothes?

Recycling bad habits turning old into new.

More healthy more positive

Until you hit the next wall.

Antisemitism

I think this week is the right time to publish something I wrote more than 20 years ago.

Translation:

Antisemitism

Antisemitism
Antisemit
Antisem
Anti
Anti
.
.
.
Anti? … And, what for?

Original Version:

Antisemitismus

Antisemitismus
Antisemit
Antisem
Anti
Anti
.
.
.
Anti? … Und wofür?