Bloodmoon

Out there
Over night
While we sleep
The goddess is bleeding
Nurturing the new year
Wolfmoon too
The howl vibrates
Calling the hunters
Breath formed to ice
The hunt laborious
Snow is high
Garnet on white
Blood above
Blood below
The new year awakens

A blessing

Christening

A blessing for my goddaughter

 
I wish for you to be brave and strong
to follow your heart
to live a life that matters
be as big or as small as you want
but never smaller than yourself
be happy—always—learn to dance in the rain
Embrace the thunderstorms and the sunshine
And dance, or sing, or write, or paint, make bread—create! 
Get stuck in, with your whole heart. 
Embrace life. 
Be a princess, be a dragon slayer.
Be a warrior, a healer, a teacher.
Be earth, wind, and water. 
Be humble, be grateful, be amazed, and full of wonder.
Climb mountains, curl up with a book.
Help when help is needed. 
Hug your friends. 
Eat an apple a day.
Carry a tissue and a towel (you never know).
If you are scared, stand tall, face your fear.
Know that you are never alone.
If you are sad, cry. Cry me a river.
And then dry your eyes, blow your nose and move on. 
If you are happy dance! And share the smiles.
If you are angry, know why, and use it to make things better.
But most of all love, love yourself, love life, love every morning
you are given
And every day, begin the adventure anew. 

Mietzekatze

Mietzekatze
Samttatze
Säbelzahn
Kampfhahn
Kuscheltier
Kampfrevier
Fellweich
Schmusereich
Ersatzkind
Liebesblind
Wurstdieb
Kinderlieb
Mausefalle
Scharfkralle
Vogelvernichter
Charakterrichter
Löwenmähne
Weltherrschaftspläne
Peitschenschwanz
Aufmerksamkeitstanz
Zungenrau
Menschenschlau
Bettbeleger
Familienpfleger
Göttergleich
Erfindungsreich
Ohrensesseltherapeut
Menschenfreud

Daughter

Life isn’t
Mutually exclusive
Love isn’t
Mutually exclusive

Your space to live
To thrive
To grow

My space to live
To thrive
To grow

His love for you
His love for me

My love for you
My love for him

There is so much space
For it all

However, protect your love
Your love for yourself

Her pain
Is not yours to carry
Her darkness
Is not yours to follow
Her abuse
Is not yours to mirror
Her hate
Is not yours to pass on
Her bile
Is not yours to swallow
Her lie
Is not yours to believe
Her violence
Is not yours to bear

Sweet child o’mine
Brave girl high heels rolling
Beautiful mind full of stars
Smile like the sun
The warmth of summer

Come home
Little bird grown
Come home

10 years


As it began
so it ends


I handed myself over
Gave myself upI have claimed myself back
I relentlessly believe in my powerYour spite and greed
Your self-loathingWill eat you
One day
Let go of the monster
You are better than that

Geh mit Gott
Aber Geh



Abused Men

Like an Ikea shelf 
She dismantled him
There were screws left
Who cares
She shrugged

Women can be abusers too
Get over it

Trembling the boards fell down
Every time she incomprehensibly panted down the phone
Threw up words like bile that won’t stay in
Projectile vomiting of hatred

Like an Ikea shelf
He would tremble
Dissociate
Disconnect
To cope

His sin? You ask
Was not to obey the psychopath
Not play the game any longer
Making her meaningless in his life

She can’t abide
Not winning
Not playing
Not cheating
Not lying

She needs to fucking win
She cheated with three different guys
Just because she could
She abused until there were witnesses

Then she ran
She span
She twisted
She warped
She threw up more bile

It’s all pointless
She is spinning
A perpetuate motion machine
Without hope to win
Over the one thing she ought to win over
Her inner demons